Friday, April 14, 2006
the way of suffering-Via Dolorosa-
Down the Via Dolorosa in Jerusalem that day
The soldiers tried to clear the narrow street
But the crowd pressed in to see
A Man condemned to die on Calvary
He was bleeding from a beating, there were stripes upon His back
And He wore a crown of thorns upon His head
And He bore with every step
The scorn of those who cried out for His death
[chorus]
Down the Via Dolorosa called the way of suffering
Like a lamb came the Messiah, Christ the King,
And He chose to walk that road out ofHis love for you and me.
Down the Via Dolorosa, all the way to Calvary.
The blood that would cleanse the souls of all men
Made its way through the heart of Jerusalem.
this song never fails to make me think about the pain Christ went through for us all. another song that i love is "How deep the Father's love for us" the poignancy and words in each song really grips the heart.
they include the fact that Christ died bearing all the scorn and mockery of the world. imagine the King of the universe dying a death fit only for the worst criminal! Whenever i sing these songs, they just compell me to stop and think of the significance of the words. and the depth of love Christ had.
whats more, i was one of them who asked for the death of Christ, metaphorically speaking of course. as the words of one song goes " it was my sin that held him there..." each of us has a part in the passion of Christ. each of all our sins were placed on Him till it was accomplished. each of us has the chance to accept gift of eternal life through this divine act of love.
He knew that his ultimate purpose on this earth was to restore the broken relationship between God and man. He lived the life of a blameless, sinless human being while being subjected to all the temptations and woes of living on earth. He struggled with the mammoth task awaiting him while on the mount of olives. yet he walked down the way of suffering like a lamb, for you and me.
whenever anyone talks about the crucifying of Christ, they never fail to bring up and expound on the physical pain he went through. from the flogging, to the crown of thorns, to the nailing of his feet and hands and finally the hours of toturous hanging on the cross. all that is true and from that we have the word 'excruciating' which literally "means out of the cross". i have promised myself to never take that word lightly again
but i speculate that for Christ the worst pain was the moment when God turned his face away. the instant Christ took upon all the sin of the world, the instant he become "unholy" while he was completing his final and most important task on earth, the Father left him alone. God in all of his holiness cannot tolerate one bit sin had to look away. imagine the the terrible feeling of loss and abandonment in that moment. for all the good that he was doing for us, he was forsaken for that. and the words continue to ring even today " My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"
Christ went through so much to redeem the nations. God who is just is also loving. that is why he gave his son up for the world. what is our response to that?
would we fall on our knees and worship him till the end of time? would we accept this gift gratefully and then go our way again? would we despise this gift and refuse to take it? would we take it and accord it as a right to have? would we take it humbly and tell others about it and its wonderful goodness?
and a little thing about good friday to watch out for. it will definitely rain! since the time this little piece of trivia was told to me, i have always remembered to check if it will rain. it is like my little test of God's faithfulness. and im glad to say..he has never failed:) and for the record. its pouring even as i am blogging this.
try it out yourself:)
Thursday, April 13, 2006
busy as a beebeen going home late the past few days
have to drag myself out of bed in the mornings
cant wait for tmr to come
finally can wake up late:)
but i am mostly liking what i have been busy with
the prac for the easter skit which ended super late
the running around school regarding crosslink stuff
the meeting up with friends
the teaching and preparing of lessons
even the incinerator trip yesterday
*never seen so trash in my life!
and...
i just heard weird things about margarine from a teacher
you dun want to know what i just heard
but im never going to touch it again!
8:53 AM
heaven in a wildflower
Monday, April 10, 2006
why we love Him?because..
- It just feels like the right thing to do
- He died for us, the most painful and terrible death
- He
is God, we have to love Him
- We want Him to love us back
which is your answer?
which is the right answer?
is there even a right answer?
4:37 PM
heaven in a wildflower
Saturday, April 08, 2006
hilarity at a new levelwent chocolate shopping with my cousin
and it was so comical lah:)
-the scene-
choosing our chocs, he deliberated over crunchie and snickers
finally chooses snickers
we go and pay
he walks back to the chocolate shelf while i pay
i see he has changed his mind
-the dialogue-
jane: hey..you changed your snickers
cousin: huh..my sneakers very nice what?
jane o_O
stunned! huh? i mean your choc lah!
cousin: ohhh..*sheepish grin*
hahahahaha
*dun kill me my cousin. i protected your identity:)
9:38 PM
heaven in a wildflower
Thursday, April 06, 2006
a day in sentosa*another blog entry done in the staffroom:)
followed the whole group to sentosa today:)
it was okkk i guess
being teachers
we didnt have anything strenous to do
basically we were there to 'jaga' everything
was paired up with my sec 1 chinese teacher
she with her marking and me with my book
but we ended up talking half the time:)
me in my broken chinese, and she in pretty good english
it was an enjoyable time:)
halfway..
we went to meet another teacher for a 'break'
at..ben and jerry's!
we are such 'enjoy life' people right?
hmm..in school now [2255pm]
spending the night in school
sleeping with the other teachers..eeks
10:47 PM
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Wednesday, April 05, 2006
where have all the teachers gone?first time im blogging in the staffroom
cos its like quite empty
and i really dun have
much [really!] to do
so not feeling so/as guilty:)
whole school in the midst of innovation week
everyone except the sec 4s
who have to continue with lessons [reads have no life]
the rest are off lessons for 6 days in total!
for special programmes, learning journeys and camps
so good life right?
sec 3 teachers and girls off to camp in a corner of spore
the not too unfamiliar corner for most of us
jalan batera [right spelling?] campsite:)
hope they have fun there
sec 1 girl are having their camp in school
can hear/see them running around
just got carried round a bball court by a class[1e1]
it was hilarious lah:)
they being so "kan cheong" and yet afraid to injure me
i was more afraid that they would hurt themselves!
haha:)
nothing much to do around
planning lessons, marking books, playing badminton:)
had a round of that with 5 other teachers:)
it was so so so fun, and funny for that matter
seeing the little quirks that each teacher had
so slacker right..hehe
tomorrow will be a different thing though
have to go to sentosa with the girls
help out in the talent night and have to stay over
first time going for such a time as a
teacherhmm..wonder what it will be like..
have a lollipop and a tronky bar on my table now:)
the good things about being a teacher..yummy..
[they were given by teachers not students]
shall spare you the explanation though
if this post sounds really incoherent
i dun balame you
i left the page on the whole day
and came back at intervals to update:)
12:24 PM
heaven in a wildflower
Sunday, April 02, 2006
the funny way He worksafter that entry yesterday
i got a little something from God..
i have been tasked to lead youth sunday worship!!
yup..during the main services on youth sunday
its like the biggest bombshell ever..
God certainly has a sense of humour
as if He is telling me that since i often feel inadequate
He is giving me more practice
9:50 PM
heaven in a wildflower
Saturday, April 01, 2006
making melody in my heartmost of you would know that by and large i am music illiterate. in that i dont and cannot play any musical instrument. it doesnt help that my other siblings do..some multiple instruments even. [i say this merely as a matter of fact, not in envy]
went for the 'expresso' concert by mgs last night with bonnie. it was a night of nice performances and lots of screaming. i did enjoy myself watching:) from dances to singing to major jamming from electrico. it helped that i knew some girls who were performing:)
everytime i watch someone play a musical instrument, especially the piano, i would wonder what the difference would have been if i didnt choose to drop piano previously. a little backgound into the whole thing..i didnt like our piano teacher and hence decided to 'boycott' in my own way. i was only 9 then! eventually my parents allowed me to stop learning. and i never picked it up again.
do i regret the decision now? well..if i am brutally honest with myself, the answer would be 'in a way yes'. especially when i watch concerts and see people playing their instruments with ease. a little part of myself would tell me that i could have done the same too if i had only persevered. maybe[obviously] not play as well, but erm..good enough?
i actually feel this the strongest in church. mostly when i have to lead worship and hence have worship practice. many times, i end up feeling a little erm..'inferior'. everyone else is able to catch cues and stuff with ease while i have to struggle with them sometimes. of course things are getting better as i am getting more experience in this area:) its really learning through practice:)
but who can i blame right? after all i made the choice. my parents could have insisted that i continued but they allowed me to make the decision. before that they warned me that in stopping the lessons, i would be in the minority of people who are 'music illiterate'. i knew all that and still made the choice. a choice that largely was made out of sheer laziness and unwillingness to be discipline enough to practice. hehe
despite this..im glad to say that i dont think that i have lost out much too. there is much more to life than music. i have always accepted the fact that i cannot play any instrument, and canot really appreciate it too. oddly enough, even if the chance to learn is offered again, i think i would not do it. its just that im so used to being what i am now. i envy people from time to time and occasionally wish i can do the same but at the end of the day, im happy the way i am now. perhaps the strongest greivance would be that i am a very uneducated audience during music concerts and such. but i can deal wth that:) just act smart lor:) haha
thankfully, worshipping God entails alot more than the music. and that i can still worship him without fanciful and fabulous music. i guess because of this, and my love for the english langauge, the lyrics of the songs take centerstage for me. [im not saying that to like the music is wrong] so praise God for accepting worship in all forms:)
Let everything that has breath praise the LORD. Praise the LORD.psalms 150:6
9:30 AM
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