Friday, July 22, 2005
a potent mix of emotionsanger, disappointment, frustration, hopelessness
they well up in me
treatening to take control of my better senses
i sit tired, finding no meaning in everything
you asked if i were pissed with you
what could i say?
of course i was and still am
but what is the point anyway?
nothing i say can change your mind
no persuasion will alter your firm decision
to each his/her own
i admit i am sorely disappointed
i reel at the shock of everything
didnt expect things to be so bad
inside i weep and lash out
pouring forth words that i cannot tell
others tell me that numbers do not matter
i am sorry that i cannot be unaffected
perhaps cos of human pride
but i just do not understand
But I said, "I have labored to no purpose; I have spent my strength in vain and for nothing. Yet what is due me is in the LORD's hand, and my reward is with my God." Isaiah 49:4*clinging on the comfort of my King*Oh Lord..thanking for not giving up on us
though you knew the hearts of your people
you still chose to walk down the guilty sod
you knew that they would reject you
and render your work on the cross worthless
what is my frustration compared to anguish you bore?
grant me a heart that looks to you only
remove all pride in me
as i live my life for your glory only